I have a dream of a house in the country.
This house has 4 bedrooms, a big kitchen and a wood burning fireplace. It's on a few acres of slightly rolling land with a creek. The land is fenced with a big farm gate at the road, my kids can explore for hours every day, they will help me garden and tend to the goats and chickens (I'll have to get over my chicken phobia first) We will live a peaceful life together, we'll be in an excellent homeschool area where my kids will have plenty of other homeschoolers to play with. My husband and I will sell organic produce in summer and fall. We will work on the land God has given us and have many moments of reflection, thankfulness for God's grace and provision.
And then there is reality....
I get so anxious sometimes waiting for our dream, I mean, if God has given the vision He will give the provision right?!
My faith is far sighted....I can see the future very clearly but I can't see the provision that God has given me right now..today.
So, I choose to see the great old house that God has put us in nothing short of miraculously. This house is owned by my grandpa and my kids are the 6th generation to live here. We rent it for cheap, which leads me to another provision.
When we moved here in August, we were really excited to be renting something for so little money..it would allow us to save up a down payment for the house in the country. God knew what we didn't.
Allen was forced to make a decision in his business which changed the whole course of our finances. He now owns his skateboard shop outright but has started from scratch with zero money, This has meant we are living tighter than we have ever before..and before, we didn't know you could get any tighter without starving..Ah, another provision here..
God has provided us with food stamps and WIC from the state, if you don't agree that we should get gov't assistance then you probably shouldn't read this blog :) We are able to buy groceries like we have never in our lives.
I said all this, to say this..God is good. He has a perfect plan for our lives but they will happen in His perfect timing..not ours..I am trying hard to remember that and appreciate today's provisions.